On the Edge of a Cliff and Ready to Fly

We’re in the middle of consolidating our debt in an effort to prepare for adoption #2. Not sure when we’ll actually START the process, but we need to save more money to get prepared for it.  Joshua’s adoption was fairly straightforward without any bumps in the process, but we could always have a difficult adoption process similar to what our work friends are going through. We also could have an adoption start and then not complete because the biological family changes their mind at the last minute. Whenever you adopt domestically, there is always a chance of things not going through, and it’s just sometimes expected, sadly, through the process. I’ve thought some about foster care adoption and international adoption but I really think that we want to adopt private domestic again the second time around. Originally, we wanted to adopt a total of 3 children, but I don’t know if that is going to be financially possible.

We are currently enjoying Joshua very much. It is fun to watch him develop into his own person and see his likes and dislikes. He is in the middle of learning the art of the full blown temper tantrum – head banging, feet kicking and all. I’ve found the best thing to do is to either ignore him but it’s better to distract him into doing something else. We’re working on a solid night time routine – bath, playtime, putting away toys, reading a book, then bed time. Last night we tried this and used a lot of songs and it worked very well – this was a great suggestion by Aunt Julie. His vocabulary is slowly expanding, he is definitely making a lot of new noises and trying out new songs, but a lot of it I cannot figure out what he’s talking about. He loves to point and say in a sing-song voice ‘Aa-oo’ which could mean ‘look at that’ or ‘I want that’ or ‘I’m sick of this.’

We can understand clearly a few words. Josh says “hi”  “bye-bye”  “Mama”  “dada”  “dog”  and some things that I can’t quite pick out that sound like “huh” or “argh.” He likes to feed Luna her food every morning and night; he’ll go to the pantry, fill up a little plastic cup one handful at a time, then carry it over to her bowl. If we let him, he would do this all day long, but we stop it when she’s had enough food in her bowl.

I am not sure what exactly is going on, but a biological father is contesting the adoption process of a family we know. This just makes me ill; during the pregnancy, he never supported the mother, and the mother picked this couple to parent her child. This child has been in their home since he was born.

I am not sure what is happening, but please pray for them. I don’t understand why adoption has to be so difficult and frightening sometimes.

Since Wed things have been difficult. I have had the most excruciating pain in my back; yesterday it was starting to feel better then today at church we left early because my legs and feet were going numb.

We felt badly because this was the first time to Gardner Fellowship Bible Church (a church plant of Olathe Bible Church). We walked out early due to my back pain and we were worried folks would think we were offended by something and left. We actually liked it quite a bit and will be going back next week.

I have been hurting so much I am impatient and worn out. The chiropractor I saw today thinks I may have a herniated disc, which worries me. I need to call my doctor and my regular chiropractor tomorrow to find out what I need to do next. The chiropractor today just said to ice it but it’s not even helping anymore. I’m worried by the numbness in my legs and feet.

Being in pain and impatient has made me think about Jesus-he was beaten and hung on the cross yet never sinned. And I’ve been sinning, impatient, and tired.