Jun
Homesick
Posted in Life as Mom, Marriage | No Comments »I need to be studying for my API 28 exam tomorrow, but I just needed to blog quickly first.
Joshua is with his Grandma tonight, and I just feel sad, and homesick. I am so grateful that she’s watching him – I was able to get some dishes done easily and then I will be able to study. However, when I don’t get to see him, I get anxious and upset about it. Donald took Joshua yesterday to Lawrence, KS to see Donald’s Great Aunt Gloria and Gary that were visiting from California. I was very concerned about Joshua being home from the visit when I got home so I could see him because I missed him!
One time when Donald’s Aunt Delaina watched Joshua due to a Toastmasters leadership training, I left the training as early as I could so I could get Joshua. I had already spent 1 evening without him and I couldn’t stand being apart from him anymore.
I know he’s okay when others are babysitting him, and I don’t mind the break to get some other things done. I just get very sad when I don’t get to see him at night because he’s spending the night with family or we have a late event one night and I don’t get to spend very much time with him.
Donald and I have had to work hard on spending time together – we both enjoy Joshua so much, we have to purposely make date nights and try to at least talk to one another during the day. I can see how married couples can lose sight of one another with the busyness of working full time and trying to raise a child. However, I keep reminding myself that once our kids grow up it will just be the two of us. I am trying to enjoy every minute with Joshua because he’s grown up so fast already – and I know the rest of his time as a child will fly by as well!
I need to study, but I miss him so much, hopefully I can concentrate enough and pass this test tomorrow!