On the Edge of a Cliff and Ready to Fly

We have made an offer on a house in Gardner, KS. It’s contingent on our house selling, but we’ve had a lot of people look at our house and our realtor tells us that a couple people are working on offers and/or deciding if they want to buy ours. Much more exciting than last year!

Nothing new on the adoption front — I haven’t heard from our social worker regarding the uninsured birth mom due in April, so I’m assuming we weren’t picked by her. I suppose it’s all for the best!

The only thing about the house we’re buying is the siding either needs to be repaired and repainted, or we need to get all new siding. Anyone had siding done on their home? Any recommendations for types of siding?

Very exciting – we’re hoping to close in May or June, and we need a contract on our house by May 22nd for this house offer to go through. Hoping it will work out!

ADDENDUM: If you want more information (ie photos, address, etc.,) email me at [watermelonjessie at yahoo dot com] and I’ll email you the listing with photos!

2 more sleeps and I’ll be heading back to Kansas City!

Just got an email from our social worker tonight. She advised us of another situation: a biracial (caucasian/african american) boy that is going to be born in April. She advised that the birthmother does not have insurance, so the costs of the birth would fall on our shoulders. I am calling our insurance company tomorrow to see if they would cover the costs of the birth mother, but from what H.R. has told us is that those costs are not covered by insurance.

I could rant and rave about how unfair this is, that since I can’t have kids, I am forced to pay out of pocket for someone else’s expenses. I could go on and on about how unfair it is that this mother isn’t even on any type of public aid that could help. I could go on and on being mad, frustrated, and hurt.

However, I keep telling myself and I keeping telling other people, and I have to give myself the following pep talk all the time. It is so easy to be bitter, to be mad, to be angry at other people who can have kids the old fashioned way. This is what I tell myself over and over and over, and verbalize to other people:

 I have committed to play this game. I don’t like the rules. I think all the odds are stacked against me. I think this game is completely unfair.  I don’t like what I have to go through to play this game. But if I want to win, if I want the outcome of having a child, I have to play by other people’s rules and I have to play the game.

I am 31 today. I had a REALLY rough time turning 30, but 31 isn’t so bad.

I got a great flower bouquet from my parents-in-law and my brother and sister in law (and it was cute my month old nephew was on the card as well!) My hubby got me tickets to see Alicia Keys at the Sprint Center. AWESOME!

Tomorrow our class is going to have a BBQ and some birthday cake (yippee!)

I share my birthday with some famous folks: Dr. Seuss was born on March 2, 1904; Desi Arnaz was born on March 2, 1917; Karen Carpenter was born on March 2, 1950; Jon Bon Jovi was born on March 2, 1962; Bryce Dallas Howard was born on March 2, 1981.

What famous folks share your birthday?

Hubby told me we had another house showing today. That’s 7 since our house was put on the market February 15th.

Last year, I think we had 12 showings total in the 6 months the house was on the market, so this is a great improvement over last year. There is one person who is very interested in buying our duplex and the other side, so that is a great encouragement. All last year we never heard about anything even wanting to buy our house, so this is pretty cool. If my hubby can sell the house for me while I’m in California, that would be fantastic.