Tomorrow….on the market!

Tomorrow our realtor comes by to get some paperwork and then our house is officially on the market. I’ve been cleaning up and packing today…I will get up early tomorrow and continue. It’s exciting…I was thinking today that once we get moved the real adoption searching can begin. It’s been so hard putting that on the back burner to get our house ready. It seems as if every spare moment has been spent painting and packing. Man, and I wanted to have the house on the market over a month ago…oh, well. I guess later is better than never. It’s just been a really, really, frustrating process. I have just felt as if I’ve spent all my spare time at home, by myself, packing and painting. My husband has worked opposite hours as me, so I just feel as if I’m alone doing everything. It was great that my inlaws came last weekend and they helped out a lot. I have been really bummed….I feel as if I’ve lost contact with a lot of people and gotten really withdrawn in trying to get our house ready. Some weekends I don’t go outside at all and we’ve been missing church a lot, which I know isn’t helping. I have never felt isolated or lonely…but right now, I have never felt more alone. I just have been trying to pray but I don’t feel very close to God. I feel as if I’m plugging away by myself, just trying to get everything done, not moving very fast, everything has been a struggle. I think I’m a little depressed, not as bad as I’ve been at sometimes, but defintely lonely. This whole infertility thing just has made me kind of numb. I haven’t cried in a long time, and normally I cry at movies or even commercials.

Posted by: DramaQueen | 04-22-2007 | 09:04 PM
Posted in: Moving | Packing | Getting House Ready To Sell